If you wish to find the spiritual life and breath, you must be still and let the need for irritation pass. You must give up objects of escape and stimulation. Let the need to reach for something or someone pass. Let the need to flee from the moment into fantasy pass. 

Don’t run from the shame, the pain in the stillness, to fulfill your own ego-life needs in some kind of excitement or activity. You have done it all before. Remember how it made matters worse? 

Observe, then, your need to be irritated. Observe yourself thinking up fantasies and distractions, something exciting to do, from someone to sex to something to be angry about. 

Let that moment pass then, and lo! Discover a new reward: the warmth, the comfort of true life that comes in through the stillness. 

The motion that springs from rest revolves about the will of God. 

The motion that comes from emotion is nothing more than a willful escape that serves Satan’s will and purpose on earth as it is in hell. But don’t struggle against your compulsion to run, lest you become more willfully and emotionally involved.

You can never free yourself. Only the Truth will make you free. Realizing this will help you find peace and rest. 

The divine rest leads back to the reward of motion (life) through that true rest. And any motion that comes from that rest produces a co-creative life without fear and without conflict. 

"The motion that springs from rest revolves about the will of God."

Without the emotions of love and hate there is no (false) hope, no ego life and breath. Therefore if you can let the need to be aroused pass, then you will not be addicted to its relief! 

You see how it is? The tension we need to release us from guilt and deadness on one hand leads around to the clinging, selfish affection for that which releases us from the guilt of that false life on the other hand.

Alas, the drain of love lays bare our guilt again, and guilt sets up the need for a violent tension. Do you see why, for example, a drunk needs a good upset? Otherwise, he cannot enjoy the relief of his drinking. It is the “no pain, no pleasure” principle.

Evil provides pain and evil provides pleasure. Pleasure is the only happiness of a sinner, and through it he meekly surrenders his soul. 

So now do you see why egocentric men delight in the very tensions and emotions they ought to be mastering? The guilt, rising from reacting to the evil stress they need, drives them to embrace the evil stress of comfort, and the evil comfort of stress, with greater and greater intensity.

Through the stress of sex or violence does the heart of man give out and does he die before his time. And through excessive comfort is his soul punctured and do his brains and bones and sinew ooze out, his blood vessels collapse.